Let it be....again

I'm writing in red because I am serious. Seriously wanting something amazing to happen... soon. There are so many things that I should be doing right now in my life, that I seem to have lost focus for. I am hoping that my road trip adventure will take care of this drifting passion of mine. A little eye-opening, liberating, spirit-lifting journey never did anyone harm. I am growing weary in this city. I guess its because I have so many people here that I love so dearly, that don't seem to love themselves... and this puts pressure on me to be there for them, even when its not healthy for me. I get pulled down with everyone else so easily. That is one of my biggest flaws. I hope I can settle myself in this wretched town. Find the creative spirit that always seems to allude me while I'm here. A test of great strength. To be strong amongst a family who has chosen to be weak, this is the toughest thing I've ever tried to do. To be a light... that is my only goal.

O yea, Into The Wild is a great book. Completely on my frequency. Great reminder of who we all are inside.

"That man is the richest whose pleasures are the cheapest."

-Henry David Thoreau

After a long time.....

... I am finally writing again. I have been doing alot of journal writing, mostly poetry. I love poetry.

Anywayz, getting to the point of this blog. What is going on here? Okay, this is something that has been bugging me for awhile. I am pretty upset at where this world is going, especially considering the people that I care most about. So many of my friends and family members are being blindly ignorant and lacking in joy or passion. It is so depressing. Addiction, Hypocracy, Greed, Deceit, Self-Hatred.... it is like our souls are being bombarded by this disgusting crap that is ruining us. Why? Is it ever going to get better? I need to know if it is ever going to get better for them, for me, for us.....I guess Sufjan puts it best:

"Oh God, hold me now
Oh Lord, hold me now
There's no other man who could raise the dead
So do what you can to anoint my head

Oh God, where are you now?
Oh Lord, say somehow
The devil is hard on my face again
The world is a hundred to one again

Would the righteous still remain?
Would my body stay the same?"

This Book is Going to Rock My Socks Off!

I couldn't describe why I want to read this book so much in more words than: I would've written this myself if Jim Wallis never did. Here is why.....
Jim Wallis's Interview w/ Jon Stewart

Happy New Fears? Hell No!

I just watched one of the most beautiful movies I've seen in awhile. It hit me especially hard considering I've had alot of change in my life recently. The movie is about a couple from India who have two children after they move to America. The film shows not only the importance of remembering the core beginnings of your family and personalizing with that.... but also, the fact of life that nothing ever stays the same. Sometimes things change in a bad way, but we always have a new bright future with every turn we take. I take this into mind as I journey through mine. Life is in the journey, not the destination. We will never be satisfied until we learn to have joy with each passing day, even the days that seem sadly different. Life can be wonderful and exciting even in the most meloncholy, boring stages. Let us not take advantage of one moment, or they will pass us by far too quickly. Live without borders, with the eyes and heart open, and with the hands reached out to the sky. We are formed by our past and our present, not by our future. Breathe Deeply.

O yea, The movie has a great love story. I realllly want to read the book now!